Feb 29, 2003 - 11.07PM

It's been interesting observing things lately. To see how life continues on around you when it feels like you're moving slowly. At times it really felt like I was moving in slow motion while everything else around me was zooming by. It's kind of weird... a little hard to describe.

It's also been interesting seeing how people approached me in different ways today. There are those who came up and offered their sympathies, others who strike up a conversation (not sure if in the intention to take my mind off things or what), others who offer a pat on the back or a hug, and also the times where I'd make eye contact with people and see heads look away probably because of not knowing what to say or how to react. I guess it made me think about what I'm like in situations where someone else is dealing with something.

Found out that my great uncle (grandpa's brother) had his gall bladder removed the same day that my grandpa went to the hospital. He spent the exact same amount of days in the hospital as his brother, and even had a premonition while he was in the hospital that there was something wrong with his brother.

I guess it's been a weekend of illnesses and injuries in this family as my brother hurt his back pretty bad in a basketball game today. I came home to find him lying on the ground. He can't even move around without any help. My thumbs hurt from giving him a massage tonight :P

Oh, I also found out that my great uncle went to the same elementary school as Stephen Kaung. I guess my uncle was one grade above Stephen or something like that. Anyways, I found that to be a little interesting.

My thoughts are all scattered lately. It's like I have too many things to think about, and they just come up in my mind randomly. It's like I have to even think about resting in the Lord. Sounds weird huh?

Ok, well my thoughts aren't making much sense even to myself so I best sign off for the night. Over and out.

Feb 28, 2003 - 11.03AM

My parents woke me up at 7.00AM this morning to tell me that my grandpa had passed away. Not exactly how you want to wake up in the morning. It's been 4 hours, and I'm still not sure how I feel or even what I'm supposed to feel I guess. I assume that I'm kind of numb right now. Maybe it hasn't really hit me yet. I know that as I've been praying with my family these past 3 nights that not only had I hoped for the Lord to heal my grandpa for my grandpa's sake... but also to stir the hearts of my parents to see God's presence. And beyond that to reach my extended family.

One thing that I've always been happy to have is an extended family that is pretty close. I'm not saying that we're all super close to the point where we'd share every single last thing with each other, but I've been blessed with aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents, etc whom I really enjoy spending time with.

There will always be a lot of stories that I will keep in my heart. I remember every holiday we'd celebrate I'd always call my grandparents and it was always a struggle to understand my grandpa because of his thick accent... but you could really hear how happy he was to get a call from us by the tone of his voice. I remember the time where he took me to the bathroom when we were at Longacres. I was probably 5 or 6 at the time. As I was in the bathroom he said something to me. I thought that he had said "I'll wait for you outside" but I guess what he really said was "I'll be right back, stay here." Well, I left the bathroom to look for him only to find he wasn't there and I remember crying so much that two ladies took me to the police station where I stayed the afternoon until my family found me. I remember my grandparents flying up for each of their grandchildren's graduations, and the good times we had whenever we got together for dinner as a family. There's all these little things that I remember as well.

How do you capture the life of your grandpa in a few paragraphs or even pages? I guess you really can't.

Feb 25, 2003 - 5.34PM

Forgot to mention that Ebert and Roeper gave the movie two thumbs up =P

Feb 25, 2003 - 5.10PM

My dad told me today that my grandpa was rushed to the hospital due to heart and kidney failure. He has diabetes and has had some health problems a few months ago, but I had heard that he was getting better. Please pray for him as he does not know the Lord. I know this has to be weighing heavy on my dad's heart. For most guys... especially Chinese guys; there are only a few times in your life where you see or hear your father crying. Today was one of them. It brings me back to the last time I remember it happening. It's actually quite vivid. The good thing that happened though is that he asked me to pray for my grandpa, and I told him that we would pray together as a family tonight. If you don't know, my parents aren't Christian.

So there's a lot of editorials and review out for The Passion of Christ. I've read both sides and so far it seems like you can pretty much pick out what they are going to say. I think the important thing for Christians to remember is in the end it's still a movie and a representation of what Mel Gibson thinks depicts the Gospels well. I'm sure he also added a few things not to mention took some out because of pressure he was receiving. It'll be a good reminder and hopefully make the reality of Christ's sacrifice more alive to us... but hopefully people won't take this as the full Gospel truth.

I got a letter from the Attorney General for the State of Washington today, along with a check for $13.86 for the class action lawsuit against the music industry for overpricing their cd's. I remember when someone sent that out via workspam and I figured might as well sign up... didn't actually think I'd see the day that the check would be here.

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Feb 18, 2003 - 11.46PM

Hmm... well it's been almost a month since I've last posted something. Through that time I'm sure I've had some thoughts worthy to be blogged, but I guess I just never got around to it. Things have been quite busy lately and actually I should be sleeping right now rather than typing this. It's ok though... I should probably have at least one entry for this month.

Got 30 tickets for The Passion of Christ on Fandango today. There's been a lot of hype lately about the movie... well not sure if I'd call it hype but at least a lot of publicity. I hope and pray that all who were involved in the making of the film stay true to their Lord and not falter towards the end of it. Looking forward to watching the movie though.

The wedding planning and house hunting are still an on going thing. Some days are more tiring than others... but man, this house hunting thing is starting to be a pain in the pigu. :P Bought 40 boxes of laminate flooring today at Costco (on passport today). Each box weighed 25lbs, and Connie and I lifted each on onto the cart then onto the car and then into my parent's house. Whew... that was my workout for the day.

Speaking of working out, I need to start up again. It's not a good idea for me to keep taking such a long layoff as I purchase candy for work. Since there's so much candy around me sometimes I don't even notice when I'm just snacking on something.